Struggling with self-acceptance

sometimes I just hate so many things about my life and who I am

I'm here to listen and support you. It sounds like you're carrying a lot right now. You’ve worked hard to build things, overcome challenges, and pursue what you care about. If you want to talk through what’s on your mind, I’m here. What’s been weighing on you lately?

I just don't really like myself that much, I have good qualities, but I just don't like who I am, I don't like the music I listen to, I don't like a lot of my life

That sounds really tough, and I appreciate you being open about it. It’s hard when you feel disconnected from yourself and your life. Sometimes when we’re overwhelmed, it’s easy to lose sight of the things that make us feel grounded or genuinely happy. You’ve shown a lot of resilience in your life—overcoming challenges and creating things from scratch. Maybe this feeling is your way of telling yourself that you’re ready for a change or that something deeper needs attention. If you could change one thing about how you feel or who you are right now, what would it be?

I want to feel like I am progressing towards something

That makes a lot of sense. Progress can feel like an anchor when life gets overwhelming—it gives direction and purpose. Sometimes when things feel stagnant or out of place, it’s a sign that your goals or the path toward them might need some realignment. You’ve got a lot of ambition and creativity, and you’re always working on new projects. Maybe it’s about finding something that feels more personally meaningful or directly connected to who you want to become. What’s one area of your life where you’d like to see progress right now?

I hate wasting time

I get that. Time feels precious, especially when you’re driven and have a lot you want to accomplish. When progress feels slow or uncertain, it can feel like every minute that slips by is a missed opportunity. It might help to break things down and set small, tangible goals that align with what really matters to you. Sometimes it’s not about doing more but doing what feels meaningful and right for where you are right now. What’s one thing you’ve been wanting to make progress on but feel stuck with?

I don't know, my free time just feels like I waste it

That’s a tough feeling, especially when you’re someone who values progress and purpose. Sometimes, when life feels overwhelming or directionless, even downtime can feel like a waste rather than a chance to recharge. Maybe part of it is figuring out what kind of activities leave you feeling fulfilled rather than drained. Is there something you used to enjoy that you haven’t made time for lately? Or something you’ve always wanted to try but haven’t gotten around to?

I used to make a lot of art, I am thinking about getting adobe creative cloud and a wacom tablet again, but I would want to save up for it first which is several months away

That sounds like a great idea—and it makes sense to plan and save for it. Art has been a meaningful outlet for you before, and it might help you reconnect with a part of yourself that feels more authentic and creative. In the meantime, maybe there’s a way to start small. You could experiment with free or low-cost digital art tools while you save up, or even sketch traditionally just to get back into the flow. Would it help to brainstorm some ways to make art more accessible right now while you work toward getting the setup you really want?